Dream

One of my friends can lucid dream, unfortunately or fortunately, i don't know how. Somehow, i can remember some of my dreams vividly and will remember it for quite a long time.Usually they are kind of violent, maybe that is the inner me, that is actually not as kind as what i show outside. Wondering, if it was the heat outside that woke the inner me out! over 100 Fahrenheit, so it was like 40 degree Celcius, wohoooo...SUMMER!!

I would like to just write down the dream, not to remind myself that i have had a dream like that, just to...hmmm..as a memory? Naaaa, to improve my english (better reason huh)

First i dreamed about my cousin sister that she dived from eighth-floor-high level and yet she couldn't take the pressure and hurt her nose. After that, the background scene changed and we ( I am not sure who are we but one of my high school friends KD is inside) were walking in a square building. Those steps were transparent and we were walking on a square paths that surrounded the inner part of the building to get something. The gaps between two squares paths get bigger and bigger each time we step on it and we had to jump in order to get to one step from the other.

We wanted to get something inside the building but I wasn't sure what we are after. The building is full with computers and those electronic instruments. Out of sudden, a few masked people came in and they were after something. One of them accidentally tripped the wire and it triggered the alarms, so, they cut off all those wires. Since there is no conflict in our interest, I kind of ignore them. One of the people came to my face and i can instantly recognised him, yet i never met him in my real life. He unveiled his mask and I was like, ya, it is him. Surprisingly, they took us with them, like, abduct.

So now all of us were on the boat and my family was with me. They have an appointment with two influential people, one is the Dailou and the other is the apprentice. I knew that this is the only chance that i can sneaked out with them and i tried to catch the attention of the apprentice and apparently i succeed. We were on the boat and there is a lot of cruise that park on the side of beach. I told that guy that it was bored on the boat and he asked me, if i know this person (he mentioned a name) and i replied, i knew. Actually this implied that he can bring me out and we can hang out at one of the cruises because the name of people that he mentioned has a cruise. So, i took this opportunity and asked him if i can bring someone with me. He said yes but someone small size because his car is not that big. I asked my mom and decided to bring my sister along, so at least she can escape. As we walked along the path to his car (maybe), i tried to venture him and ask, if it is alright for him to bring us out without informing the people who caught us. He replied confidently, who do you think i am (he is confident with his reputation and power). As we talked, he said that he knew a lot of kidnapping/blackmail happens because he himself experienced it for few times (i understand it as in, he is powerful so people would like to kidnap him to gain some power)

We sensed the tense as we walk down the path and he asked us to hide ourselves. There is like a H-shape road and i try to walk in to the horizontal path (the one that connect the two vertical line of H) yet i met with his superior at the end of the road so i change my direction and the other end, come another people from the other party, i pushed them together and they shoot at each other. The shooting skill of the superior wasn't good and one bullet hurt my shoulder. Now, i am standing in a place that the superior is at my 1 o'clock direction, another killer at my 10 o'clock direction and the one who brought me out is in front of me.

I know somehow i have to shoot some people to keep my sister and myself safe and i had a gun with 5 bullets with me. First i shoot the people at 10 o'clock direction and the 1 o'clock direction. In between, the guy that brought us out shoot at us and my sister was shoot in her head (i guess) and i am in the throat with two bullets. I don't have bullets in my gun any more and i ran out from that place. I hold my throat and i can still feel the pain slowly eating up my body. The place that i ran out is just like a path in the garden.

In the dream, or in real life, i don't afraid that i am dying, but what i afraid the most is i disappoint my parents. I brought my sister out yet i cannot assured her safety. I was thinking, my parents doesn't know that both of us are dead and they may still waiting for our news. What happen if they figured it out and when will they figured it out...Then, i was awake 

The biggest thing in the life is not dying

But to let someone who trust you and love you unconditionally down

Arlington 1756

12 August 2014

 

Reunion

After not seeing them for so many years, now I am going to spend the day before my new semester start at their house, for around 10 days =)

My aunt has been moving to USA since ...i don't really know when, most probably before my mother gave birth to me. I've met with them perhaps 6 or 7 years ago and we don't really have the chance to meet because when they go back to Malaysia, I am either in Australia or Germany. I think god has His own arrangement so that we can meet up this time and spend some time together.

It is kinda nice because even though i didn't meet with my cousin sisters and brother for so long, we can still chit chatting with each other like we knew each other for long time. My aunt even surprised that the dog at her house didn't bark at me at all. Perhaps is the clothes that i wore on the first day of arrival (we wore 95% similar t-shirt) or, just the blood that flow in our body has the same gene? haha..who knows, dogs are clever =)

The upbringing of the children are really awesome. They are talented in music, good in academic and most important! they are really polite kids and you can feel the stream of love that flow in their family. Peaceful, soft, gentle...you just feel like you are at home when you are here. Everyone accept you with full heart, try to blend you into their lifestyle, compliment you when they feel you are great. Society can be full of love when all people behave this way (exaggerated =P)

Anyway, I am really a lucky kids. I met awesome people no matter where i go. Have some people to give me their hand when i need some help =)

Don't afraid to make a decision
It can never be wrong or right
It is all depending on how you do and what you do at that time

Arlington 2242
08 August 2014

Moving

Moving constantly from time to time, from place to place, from continent to continent

People who don't really know you will say, wao...you life experience is really rich, you have the chance to explore the world, you have the opportunity to immerse yourself in different cultures, you can get to know friends from all around the world, you can do a lot of shopping...bla bla bla...

但是誰會説，又要分離那麽久？又要有時差？又要錯過那麽多可以一起度過的時光？

在外那麽多年（也沒很多，就喜歡誇張），4年都是沒有和家人一起過生日的。總覺得，生日要和家人一起度過才有意義。就連父母親節也沒能一起過，更別説家人的生日了。每每錯過一個重要的節日，總會說，哎呀，再過一些日子就回去了。但是誰知道，大家能呆在一起的日子還有多長？回到家總覺得錯過了和家人一起過的時光。科技的進步雖然能夠讓在不同地方的人持續保持聯絡，但是也都改變不了時差。沒能和爸爸一起過生日，沒能和爺爺一起過生日感覺還真差。自己的21歲生日也就在外面過，更差啦！！！！

沒有要抱怨的，因爲是自己的選擇。在外還是學到很多，還是遇到很多貴人=)

就衹是想寫寫一篇文。哈哈哈

Denton 2119
06 August 2014

離別，不一定感傷

大家紛紛都回國逍遙去了。大家也就是蘇小姐一人而已啦，哈哈哈哈...

那天送了她到火車站，她説，她的性格實在不適合呆在德國，因爲太過不細心了。舉個例，蘇呢，需要搭RK5006的火車到法蘭去，然後到機場。那火車就在她眼前，但是號碼還沒有顯示出來。蘇就和我們（另一個姐姐也在）說，我衹是看到了RK1506。當下我們兩個就覺得很奇怪，明明顯示板上的號碼是RK5004(上一個班次的號碼），爲什麽她會看到那麽神奇的號碼呢？我們就走到月臺上，等著號碼顯示出來，然後一股作氣衝上火車找個好位，沒有預定位子嘛，學生總是這樣....哈哈哈哈....而且人也不多，善用有限資源做無限的事情（商科學生），哈哈哈哈， 火車號碼純屬虛構，如有雷同，那就忘了吧。

再來，我們告訴蘇說，火車可以直達法蘭飛機場，不需要再市中心下車然後轉車。然後呢，蘇說，我不知道呢.....汗顔....爲什麽一個那麽聰明的人可以那麽不細心，第一名有時候還是會有點小粗心，老天啊，你是公平的。哈哈哈哈哈哈

把她送上火車后，我們倆就快下來，擔心火車把我們一并載走就糟糕了。去了別的城市還沒關係，重點沒有票根會被罰款呢！在月臺上等著火車走，然後和姐姐說，應該要發微信，讓她知道飛機場那一站是在城市那一站之後，要她不要下錯了。但是發了微信她也沒回，就擔心的（說實在沒有很擔心，就想看會發生什麽事，哈哈哈）在外面踱步。慶幸的是，一個帥小哥，就坐在蘇隔壁，視乎看懂了我們緊張的肢體語言，比手劃脚的告訴我們她就在這。然後蘇就走了出來，然後我們千叮萬囑，要她不要下錯站，還有，重點，非常重要，要和小帥哥好好的聯絡感情。來一段最後的艷遇....哈哈哈哈哈

就這樣，沒了。我是説，沒有人在德國陪我9點去吃火鍋，到巴黎鐵塔和小唐拍看似唯美的照片（其實内容搞笑），陪我說亂七八糟的事情，然後冷冷地説，你也就這麽一説。蘇啊，你也聽不到不是很正宗卻很正宗的華語。我會唐詩三百首的兩首欸....哈哈哈哈

保重啦朋友，要定期聯絡。然後，喜事喜事，一定要報告。哈啊哈哈，什麽都行。

Berlin 2350
21 July 2014

Mafia, Doctor & Cops

第二學期在隨著一杯香檳完美的落幕了

Second semester end beautifully with a glass of Sekt and a piece of "service and retail marketing"-photo

Could not really believe that i can go so far but thanks to the support of my family and friends, i did it =)

Went out for Ms.c8 Abschluss party on Friday now, and again i confirm that i am not an alcohol people =P I miss you bubble tea, Oolong tea, green tea, Pu er tea, tie guan yin, zui xi shi, da hong pao, gao shan Oolong...whatsoever, give me teaaaaa...Long island ice tea?? hahahaha

Yesterday night (to be exact, this EARLY morning).. we had a "not-so-asian" Asian dinner at Silviu's dormitory together with Christopher, Fredrik, Max, Sanket, Silviu and YY (alphabetically order). YY and i were the "chef" for that night while Silviu prepare the desserts. The dessert is quite special as it is the first time i eat meringue that cook in milk. So, you have to beat the egg white until it is fluffy and cook it into milk, after that,put it on the top of the sauce that made from egg yolk and some other stuffs. Special =D

The climax of the gathering was the game part. First we played a game, i don't know what the name is, but it works this way. You draw something on the paper, and hand it to the person next to you. He/ she will then describe the pictures and hand to the person next to him/her and the next person will draw it. The cycle goes until those papers come back to you. Well, we have Chris so everything can be complicated. He drew a hot air balloon in penis shape, and someone described it as porn version of "Up" (the cartoon where a house flies up with a lot of balloon) The next person understand it well and draw a house with a lot of penis shape balloons, it then become one big P with a lot of balloon and end up, it became PEACOCK!! hahahaha....what a good transformation =P

I drew a frog on a lily pad, and the second picture is also a frog on a lily pad just that the frog may looks deformed?? i don't know, should as Fredrik...and, Max described it as war tank...hahaha, so it became tank at the end, well, at least both of them are in green, so, 50% correct.hahaha

The second game was Mafia game. Damn, everyone just so good in guessing and lying...I am doctor I am cop.Doctor sleep, Cop wake up bla bla bla...and the pity Sanket, he is either the narrator, or he get killed in the first round. No matter what..hahahaha, if he is not killed, then everyone suspect that he is the mafia =P Max is the one who either be the Mafia, or get killed at the first round as well..lol.. Definitely a good experience and memory ! i am so in love in this game even though i didn't use my brain during the game. I just vote against someone when my sixth sense tells me to.. hahaha

We leave Silviu's dormitory around 0130 hour and Max and I walked together to main station. On the way to main station, something creepy happened. Everything is creepy to me after Mafia game because you never know who is lying and who is telling the truth. A woman held the rose and stand at the road side together with a man (i guess is her husband or boy friend), and she said bitte schon, and passed me the rose and left. Both of us feel so weird at that time and were sceptical about the situation. will the rose explode? will they follow us? will they put something in the rose and we will pass out after smell it? no one knows, but the rose really looked pretty. Yet, i put it in the garden because it just let me feel insecure. I think they just want to give us the rose without any bad intention but sorry, mom says don't keep something from stranger =(

總的來説，昨天真的是太開心了。太愛你們了<3

Leipzig 1200

30 June 2014

Father's Day

It's father's day today and it is also the second father's day since I arrived in Germany. I didn't manage to call home today as i was out since morning.

回想起來，和爸爸聊天的時間沒有很多。就算打電話回去，也就聊那麽五分鐘。大家都說女兒是爸爸的前世情人，可能我爸害羞吧？哈哈哈。我也很害羞。其實從短短五分鐘的對話中就能夠感覺到爸爸對我們無盡的關愛，因爲對話里説的都是天氣有沒有很冷？要多穿衣服。有沒有很壓力？要適當的放鬆。夠不夠生活費？不夠記得要說。簡短的幾句話就傳達了滿滿的愛。

亞洲文化吧，我們并沒有經常把愛挂在嘴邊。但都用行動來證明。毫無怨言地支持我到國外讀書，說衹要想讀而且能夠讀，就會讓你去讀。費用輪不到你來操心。到了這邊念書，聽叔叔說我有少許壓力，就説，如果那麽壓力就回來，沒必要把自己搞得那麽辛苦。還有家人在你背后。

愛，一切盡在不言中。

我愛你，爸。當然媽媽也是。哈哈哈哈。爺爺奶奶也是 =)


Leipzig 2155
15.06.2014 (Father's day)

Running Dinner。Experience

I told Ari "LAST MONTH" that i will write a blog entry about that night, "Running Dinner Night" yet i haven't even written it until now...Last month is actually just few days ago, and i told her in 30th May, so, not too far isn't it..hahahaha

Running dinner is a new concept for me. The first time i came across this term was last year, the first "RuDi" that i took part in (with Ari too ^^) So, it functions this way. First you have to sign up (lame, of course you have to organise and register yourself or else how will the other know whether you participate or not? i am dumb..haha) There is basically three course meal, appetizer, main course and dessert. You will have these three course at three different house, also, you will be the host for one of the three course. Let say, you are in-charge of appetizer, so, you will stay at the designated place (your own house or someone's else house) to prepare for it, and people will come to your house to have the first course. After that, you will go to second house to have your main course with different group of people and then, the same process repeat again for the dessert. It is fun, isn't it?? The main purpose of RuDi is actually get to know other people as well as...EATTTTT!!! You will have the chance to eat different types of foods =)

So, last year i was in the same team with Ari and we cooked Thai curry rice. Basically, i just help cutting all those stuffs and Ari is the chef =) we screwed up our rice because we didn't have the rice cooker at that time and we bought the type of rice which is not in the plastic package (i never know that it exists until i went to Aachen and my chinese friend cooked it, just boiled water, throw package of rice into it and after 15 minutes, it is done. Just like Ketupat =D ) This year, we did the same thing as well but, OH MY GOD!!! it was such a big success, we have soft fluffy white rice with awesome curry!!! You definitely have to try it!! (if chef Ari is willing to cook you some)

I've tried Romanian dumpling and chinese glutinuous rice ball this time as starter and dessert. The texture of Romanian dumpling is quite a surprise for me. It is like the egg of the fish. However, i like the broth, so much because it is so clear, unlike those creamy soup that i've eaten so far. After finished three course meal, we went back to Ari's place and have a "Ari's make-up session". She is just so good in make up, korean skill, european skill, you name it, you have it! Different eye shadow colors, lipsticks....HEAVEN for girl, for guy as well if you like those stuffs >.< I really really like how she dressed me up that night !! and we have a long chat until midnight =D how lovely...just feel so relax when talk to her =D BTW, she is a pretty girl (this is from mr. Tan HaoHan) wahahahaha...

es geht nicht darum, wie weit du läufst,
sondern jeden Tag einen schritt weiter zu gehen -Mcfit


Leipzig 1126
03.06.2014