Dream

One of my friends can lucid dream, unfortunately or fortunately, i don't know how. Somehow, i can remember some of my dreams vividly and will remember it for quite a long time.Usually they are kind of violent, maybe that is the inner me, that is actually not as kind as what i show outside. Wondering, if it was the heat outside that woke the inner me out! over 100 Fahrenheit, so it was like 40 degree Celcius, wohoooo...SUMMER!!

I would like to just write down the dream, not to remind myself that i have had a dream like that, just to...hmmm..as a memory? Naaaa, to improve my english (better reason huh)

First i dreamed about my cousin sister that she dived from eighth-floor-high level and yet she couldn't take the pressure and hurt her nose. After that, the background scene changed and we ( I am not sure who are we but one of my high school friends KD is inside) were walking in a square building. Those steps were transparent and we were walking on a square paths that surrounded the inner part of the building to get something. The gaps between two squares paths get bigger and bigger each time we step on it and we had to jump in order to get to one step from the other.

We wanted to get something inside the building but I wasn't sure what we are after. The building is full with computers and those electronic instruments. Out of sudden, a few masked people came in and they were after something. One of them accidentally tripped the wire and it triggered the alarms, so, they cut off all those wires. Since there is no conflict in our interest, I kind of ignore them. One of the people came to my face and i can instantly recognised him, yet i never met him in my real life. He unveiled his mask and I was like, ya, it is him. Surprisingly, they took us with them, like, abduct.

So now all of us were on the boat and my family was with me. They have an appointment with two influential people, one is the Dailou and the other is the apprentice. I knew that this is the only chance that i can sneaked out with them and i tried to catch the attention of the apprentice and apparently i succeed. We were on the boat and there is a lot of cruise that park on the side of beach. I told that guy that it was bored on the boat and he asked me, if i know this person (he mentioned a name) and i replied, i knew. Actually this implied that he can bring me out and we can hang out at one of the cruises because the name of people that he mentioned has a cruise. So, i took this opportunity and asked him if i can bring someone with me. He said yes but someone small size because his car is not that big. I asked my mom and decided to bring my sister along, so at least she can escape. As we walked along the path to his car (maybe), i tried to venture him and ask, if it is alright for him to bring us out without informing the people who caught us. He replied confidently, who do you think i am (he is confident with his reputation and power). As we talked, he said that he knew a lot of kidnapping/blackmail happens because he himself experienced it for few times (i understand it as in, he is powerful so people would like to kidnap him to gain some power)

We sensed the tense as we walk down the path and he asked us to hide ourselves. There is like a H-shape road and i try to walk in to the horizontal path (the one that connect the two vertical line of H) yet i met with his superior at the end of the road so i change my direction and the other end, come another people from the other party, i pushed them together and they shoot at each other. The shooting skill of the superior wasn't good and one bullet hurt my shoulder. Now, i am standing in a place that the superior is at my 1 o'clock direction, another killer at my 10 o'clock direction and the one who brought me out is in front of me.

I know somehow i have to shoot some people to keep my sister and myself safe and i had a gun with 5 bullets with me. First i shoot the people at 10 o'clock direction and the 1 o'clock direction. In between, the guy that brought us out shoot at us and my sister was shoot in her head (i guess) and i am in the throat with two bullets. I don't have bullets in my gun any more and i ran out from that place. I hold my throat and i can still feel the pain slowly eating up my body. The place that i ran out is just like a path in the garden.

In the dream, or in real life, i don't afraid that i am dying, but what i afraid the most is i disappoint my parents. I brought my sister out yet i cannot assured her safety. I was thinking, my parents doesn't know that both of us are dead and they may still waiting for our news. What happen if they figured it out and when will they figured it out...Then, i was awake 

The biggest thing in the life is not dying

But to let someone who trust you and love you unconditionally down

Arlington 1756

12 August 2014